don't get people
don't get myself
I wish I didn't need other people
and when I don't have any, I don't and it's fine....
I hate feeling like this all the time
I hate how you react, how you try to make me feel better and how you make me feel worse
but I still love you
and I hate that too, I hate love, it swallows my whole life and controls my complete thinking process
I don't even know what to write...
and I hate how I can be so angry at you for so many thing, so many things you don't even realise, and tomorrow when I see you I'll just have to act fine as always even though you're gonna say shit that pisses me off and not even notice, and have conversations that I'm not even needed in and then not listen to nearly half of the things I'm trying to say to you
you ask why I'm like this with you, because you caused it... even if you don't know it chances are you did, even if the original source of my irritation was not you you probably made it flare
but I love you and don't know what I'd do without you...
"the worst part about being lied to is knowing you weren't worth the truth"