Confused and Likely Overreacting

This is gonna be looooong and likely make NO sense as I've been making increasingly less sense recently

Pretty much always felt I think a bit differently and 'wrong' but then again who doesn't I'm sure
But anyways, thought about it more recently, well and early last year but never did anything about it then but started feeling similar again however many months ago but ignored but now I just don't even know what's happening I just feel so inconsistent

I started speaking to someone new also and they asked me if I had anxiety or whatever because I seemed like I had it [can't remember their reasoning]
So anyways, a few days prior I saw an article about over thinking which very much applied but I am an over thinker and I know that, back on topic, I looked up anxiety symptoms and such on many different sites and nearly all symptoms applied and some were relieving to know that there could be a cause - getting random pains, tensions and random hot flashes

of course I know that is no diagnosis but pondered it more and thought it explained a lot but then I was probably over thinking again
I went to someone's house today and they did a BPD test on everyone for fun as they have it but I never got my result
this made me search personality tests now when I got home and took quite a lot and some of my results were just... hm

on one test it gave percentages for certain things, and for paranoia I got 50% above average I think it was, and stuff about being co-dependant, worrying about people leaving [that's another thing I worry so much I'm beginning to think it's ridiculous but I can't help it] and other tests said I may have panic disorder, major depression disorder, manic episodes and signs of other stuff as expected and a lot of stuff affected relationships also which I find kinda sucky

anyways I know none of this is definite or anything but I dunno I want to know if there is anything there that could explain anything but I dunno don't want to find out there's nothing and I'm just being stupid

same with dyslexia a man at college want me to get tested for it and I have been horrendous at spelling and reading recently but yeah I never got tested for it because I think I am just really thick and so going for that would be stupid and looking for an excuse likely to only be told I am indeed just thick

ok not as long as I thought, I don't have the words to express it atm it seems
I dunno
nothingness so